Wednesday, October 15, 2008 @6:27 PM
And you're feeling lost.
It's the middle of PMR and I'm here blogging while my brother is snoring in the background. Oh, speaking of him, it was his birthday on the first day of PMR. (: Hopefully it won't be when HE sits for it.
I've been in a good mood lately. (: Even today, when I was panicking over Sejarah and was practically hyperventilating while Carmen tried to calm me down. She probably thought I went nuts, I was saying all kinds of crazy nonsense and would exclaim loudly at yellow cars. Geez. x)
Mm Mum bought
P.S, I Love You for me, so I'm reading it for the second time. For some strange reason, it's affecting me more now. I wonder why. ): I can't be getting weaker, can I?
OH WELL.
As I was saying to Mark last night, I think I've finally moved past the "phase" I've been in for the past year or more. (: And he was like,
"Are you sure this time?" Hahahaha, he has no faith in me. But then I went on this nonsense rant about some bird that yearns to be with the moon, but they can never be together or some rubbish like that.
I'm telling you, I was temporarily insane. (:
But I was inspired by the peribahasa 'bagai pungguk rindukan bulan'! HAHAHA.
I miss my bus buddies. ): I haven't spoken to them in forever! But the Form Two guys were so sweet, sending good luck messages. Mankaran wishes me luck every morning! Aaah I love them. (:
Tagged.
If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
I'm jinxed! ): I don't know, I'd probably scream and fling bricks at him. Then I'd be ranting to my friends and asking them what to do. But I'd like to think that I'd accept the fact and realise that someone better for me is out there, and move on. (:
If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
I have to agree with Juin's answer, which is finding someone who really loves me and understands me and knows me really well and this and that and that. The usual thing. (: But I think the hardest thing for me to do would be to allow myself to love that person back. I don't know how!
What will your dream wedding to be like?
Hmmm, one with the man I love? And on a beach on a really lovely day. I'd like it to rain. Hahaha. And I want everyone to be happy. Is that so much to ask?
On your wedding day, what you would like to see?
Um, a lifetime with the man I'm marrying? Oh my goodness, I think I'm starting to sound ridiculous.
Are you confused as to what lies ahead of you?
Not really. I don't like thinking about the future. But when I do, I guess I'm pretty confused. Ahah.
What's your ideal lover like?
I suddenly feel like I have a very cynical opinion of all these lovey questions. Geez. There isn't such a thing as an 'ideal lover'. Nobody's perfect. There's always going to be at least one thing that you don't like about the person, like a bad habit or something. But I'd like to think that I'd accept the person's flaws as a part of them, and let them be some of the reasons why I love them. At least then, he'd be ideal to me. (:
Which is more blessed? Loving someone or being loved by someone?
Loving someone. Or rather, having the courage to love someone. Because what if you don't love the person who loves you? You wouldn't want to hurt the person. But to love someone, to feel whatever magical feeling there is when you have that someone (not that I would know, right?): that's something I'd really like to experience.
How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
I'd like to say, as long as it takes, but I know that's not true. People have to move on some time, right? Otherwise they'd just waste their lives away, waiting for someone who doesn't love them back. (Oh shit.) But the idea of spending an eternity waiting for the one is immensely beautiful. Like The Man Who Can't be Moved. (:
If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
Wait? Hahahaha. Which I suppose I have done. But even when they become unattached, it might not work out. (: Still, at least you've increased your patience! HAHA.
Is there anything that has made you unhappy these days?
No. (: Okay, YES! Like the crappy BM paper and how I wrote that Tan Sri Shamsuddin gave Zulkifli a cheque of RM 350, 000 in his office when he only gave RM 50, 000! Geez. WHY pay by instalments? ): Oh, and the fact that my once-best friend seems like a stranger to me. It's heartbreaking, yes?
How do you see yourself in 10 years time?
Halfway to 50. HHAHAHA omg. I can't even imagine myself that age. But hopefully, happy, wherever I may be.
Who are currently the most important people to you?
Family and friends. (:
Would you rather be rich and single or married but poor?
Rich and single, obviously. Being poor would probably have a bad effect on a marriage anyway. Fighting all the time and such. Empty bellies make for bad moods you know.
What's the first thing you do every morning?
Fumble around for my phone so I can turn my very LOUD alarm off. It's Shameless by All Time Low, by the way. Very very very efficiently sleep-penetrating.
Would you give all in a relationship?
I'd probably give more. Geez. x)
If you fall in love with 2 people simultaneously, who would you pick?
It's hard enough for me to fall for one person, and it takes FOREVER. You think I can fall for TWO, AT THE SAME TIME?
Geez, who are you?
What type of friends do you like?
The kind like mine. (: They're brilliant.
What type of friends do you dislike?
The fake kind, who only pretend to be your friends but really aren't. The kind who are nice to you when they need something, then completely forget about you. The kind who tell you how important you are to them, then act as if you never existed. If you're thinking of yourself, you're right.
Are you a virgin?
Purer than pure. (:
Have you ever lied to your parents?
Not much. Once, twice, 737649623 times?
What did you lie about?
Little insignificant things, like, "The fan was on in my room? It wasn't me!" I've never really told a BIG lie.
Currently, are you having any crush on anyone?
Happily, no. Didn't I say my phase was over? The bird can't reach the moon. (:
Hint about him/her?
HMMMMM. He's not who I think he is. He's currently in the Mr Hyde form, because it's stronger than the Dr Jekyll form. Someone find the right powder thing laah!
Do you think the guy/girl knows?
I could strap a titanium safe to my body and jump into the Pacific Ocean and he wouldn't even be aware of it. (:
What phrases you usually say when something unexpected happens?
1. HAHAHAHA (continue for seven paragraphs more)
2. Geez
3. Hmmmmmmm?
It changes according to my mood, I think. HAHA.
What annoys you the most?
Rude, insensitive people. Exams. (:
What is your current obsession?
I can't say I have one. Oh, STRAWBERRIES! Mmmmmm.
Who do you short text the most these days?
Colin! And San Yap. They're fun people. (:
I miss Xian Yang though. HAHAHA.
Who do you miss alot now?
My once-best friend? Actually, I don't know if I still miss him.
I've gotten used to his absence.
..
No, he's missed.
Which secondary school friend you miss alot?
The same person.
Who do you idolise now?
I don't believe I have one. (:
Best girl friend?
All of them. Pick one!
Best boy friend?
He's turned invisible, so I've lost him.
Not a friendly ghost after all!
Biggest fear?
Time, over and over.
Favourite hang out place?
Somewhere over the rainbow where my friends are. (:
Made any new friends recently?
Hmm. I've been talking to Vetton lately, does that count? He's nice. (:
What kind of mood are you in most of the time?
Mixed. HAHAHA.
If you were to go out with any group of friends, who will you choose?
The usual lovely people. (:
Do you like the person who tagged you?
Ching! Yes, my hyper and emo buddy. We understand each other. Haha.
So yes, I love her!
I tag:
YOU!
Yes, you, reading this now.
I miss Wayne. ): Where did he disappear to, SERIOUSLY?
And San Yap is
incomprehensible, SERIOUSLY. (:
So anyway. Would
you like to be a carpenter / plumber / mechanic when you grow up? Cos I certainly wouldn't.
So WHY do we have to learn KH?